What is the last thing you learned?The last thing I learned is from a recent experience.

What is the last thing you learned?

The last thing I learned is from a recent experience. 

This thing I learned is that, if you expect something is going to happen, even if you spend years preparing for it, it's always worse than you imagined. At least that's what I have experienced.

It was only a matter of time before the corrupt nature of this society would become obvious. It was certain that the master merchants who influence the arrange of this society were using the same playbook for each generation. There was likely to be a repeat of Ronald Reagan. The first true puppet president. I knew this second version of Reagan would be more bombastic, because society had become more corrupted from decades of affluence. But every time I unwittingly expose myself to news videos of the donald puppet I cringe. It seems so much my fake than I had expected.

It was also expected that something like the COVID-19 pandemic would inevitably occur and leadership would fail. And it isn't just leadership in the government that is lacking. The whole thing is unraveling in slow motions. For so many years I imagined this because I paid attention to what was going on around me. I was taught to do lots of research and stay vigilant. Be prepared for anything but expect nothing. So I saw this mess coming but I can tell it's going to be so much worse than I thought.

This is a lesson I've learned before in other ways. Such as the first time I pushed my significant other and into the arms of another lover. This actually felt horrible but turned me on at the same time. I know now that if my heart loves something I must let it go. If it comes back to me, then it becomes a part of me. If it doesn't return it was never a part of me in the first place.

There are very few times in life in which I had to learn a difficult lesson that it wasn't worse than I imagined. It feels like this has been in my daily lessons lately to prepare me for something not yet realized. It's unclear what the nature of this difficult lesson will be.